A LITTLE OF ME

If Only..

2011-03-25T23:38:00.006+08:00

Look at me now.

I figured that everything would be alright since its been 1 year I haven't been talking to HER neither have I been looking at HER. But to be really honest, I miss HER. She hated taking pictures of herself. She was pretty much a tomboy just like me. We had many things in common. I loved her and cherished her. But we had a terrible fight 2 years ago. She hurt me, I hurt her, we hurt each others feelings terribly. And the part that hurt me the most was when she accused me saying I told a lie to everyone about what happened between us which made her look bad. So I was sorry and I told her it would be better if we just pretend like we've never met. Life changed since then. I was never the me I knew before. But when I saw HER pictures, words started flowing through my mind thinking "Wow, look how much she's change.. Look how different she is now. Look how much she's grown. You see her being all happy but look at YOU.. what are you?" But that didn't bother me much until I saw HER mentioning our good friend's name, Ame. I remember a couple of months ago, I was talking to Ame on the phone since it was after my birthday. She called and she wished me happy birthday but I told her it passed like 1 week ago. So we talked and talked she told me its been years since she last contacted HER. So i told Ame about what happened between us cause I thought that "Hey, since Ame hasn't been in contact with her and might not be in contact with her ever again.. I might just tell her what happened.." But after I found out that they have been contacting with each other, I felt like a fool. I knew that everything was never right. Ame has been lying to me, she has been lying to me, they have been lying to me.. But sometimes I'll ask myself, "Was it ME who's been lying all along?". I never knew the answers of the thoughts I had in my head. I felt so miserable. So useless. So fake. So mean and cruel. Even now. So once in a while I'll be thinking, " If only I had never met them. If only my life was like a fairy tale before. If only... I was never here. "

Forever and ever.

2011-02-16T20:25:00.000+08:00

No one can replace her, I would be nothing without her.

I bet that in this world, every human being has a best friend. Its either two, three, four or more. Well, i have many friends which I claim them as BEST friends but to be really honest.. They are all the same. They are still friends to me. I've always thought that only one can have only one best friend but when you choose one, that ONE person would eventually leave you. Someday and one day. So I don't care anymore. I rather be friends with everyone instead of being alone forever. But I've found someone who has been my close friend for 5 years almost 6. She's cute, white, fair, pretty, smart and innocent. She really is the best friend I've ever had. I was never in the same class as her but we always remain close friends. We talk, we gossip and the best thing I love about her is that.. She only shows her real self when she's with me. Though I have to be really honest, sometimes I'm just really afraid of her leaving me. But right now I'm trying very best to avoid that coming into my mind because I don't know what I would do without her.

I will keep moving forward.

2011-02-07T23:45:00.004+08:00

Watch me.

I haven't lost anything,

Its just that,
I never had any of them in the first place.
Everything was given by others.

From the very beginning,
I never had a single thing.
Nothing belonged to me.

I am not wrong.
They all may have said they'd be with me forever,
But its quite clear that was merely a lip service.
Now that I have finally realized,
I play the main character in a tragedy.

No one has ever loved me.

I was a powerless child,
But I returned here in order to bestow the same humiliation upon those who hurt me,
I am waiting for them to come for me again.

Why should I be sitting around sad and in mourning?
Even a dead person can stay still.
But I'm here alive and standing on my own two feet.
If I'm going to end up dying one day,
I'd rather do with no regrets.

I wouldn't call it something as grand as revenge.
It's all just to make me feel better.
It's a game between them and me to see who will win.

Even if I'm flung into the depths of despair,
If there is even a spider's thread I can use to climb out,
I'll grab it and never give up.
We humans have the strength to do that.
However,
Whether to grab it or not is up to each individual.

Unspoken.

2011-02-01T13:29:00.007+08:00

Say it before its too late.

I heard my mother talking about me behind my back. The way she spoke sounded really frustrated and angry. Its been days since I last spoke to her. She never did anything wrong to me but I am the type of person who gets angry at someone and won't speak to anyone. There are many things that people don't understand. They tend to simply talk when they don't even know the actual reason. And that pisses me off. It started of with my younger sister who talks shit to my parents. I was so mad I slapped her on the face and since then I had a grumpy look. I kept quiet day and night. Believe me, I was as silent as the dead. I thought of apologizing to everyone in my family. I thought its gonna be easy but whenever i face them, words don't seem to come out. My mind goes blank, I get all nervous. I try to avoid them, ignore them as though they never did exist. Its not easy neither do I feel like its a good thing. I go to my room, lie down on my bed all day long writing about how i really feel. So the words I'm searching for is done. What I'm wanting to say to them is..
I'm Sorry.

Is this it?

2011-02-01T02:20:00.007+08:00

I give up.

Have you ever thought of giving up something your so obsessed with? But no matter how hard you tried, you can never do it? Well, I have. Up until now I haven't given it up yet. I feel disappointed with myself because it kills me little by little, everyday just by looking at it. I know its wrong and yet I keep it going on. I know one day the world might end with just a blink of an eye. I know I don't have much time. I have to get prepared but right now, I'm sitting down on this brown old chair doing the same thing all over again. It hurts to see that whenever I put my effort into it, I can never succeed. I try and try but keep on failing.
Sometimes I just wonder..
Why do I even try?

Some things can change.

2011-01-30T23:06:00.011+08:00

Hey! Okay. So I haven't been in the mood of writing lately. I'm sorry. But i haven't been in the mood of talking either. My younger sister just pisses me off like damn shit. Sometimes, i wish she never did have a mouth -.- She talks too much, she should learn how to SHUT UP. Ugh. Anyways, my family keeps complaining about me going on a diet since I'm not eating properly. Even my aunts and uncles say I'm like skinnier then usual. O.O I mean, I sometimes skip lunch AND dinner. But its not that I'm going on a diet. Its just that, whenever I'm mad... I just have no appetite. So I can't eat! But my mum just scolds me and asked me to EAT or I WILL STUFF THIS HELL DOWN YOUR THROAT. So I'm like fine fine fine, whatever. -.- Ehem. As I was saying, today I had an awesome day. Kinda. A little. I went out with my church friends but i was still in a grumpy mode since my whole body was aching because of yesterdays 1hour30mins karate and 1hour30mins dancing. I was dying and today its worst so I can't even walk up or down the stairs properly so I had problems but who cares? And today, I watched the movie THE GREEN HORNET and i was awesome! REALLY AWESOME! I love it <3

Unwritten.

Even though I hate people,
Even though this is completely outside the norm,
Even though i keep thinking this isn't like me,
But with you here,
Its out of this world.

loves,
s.f

Everything is new.

2011-01-22T22:27:00.004+08:00

Hihihihi. Today is a Saturday. My day is always the same BUT there was something different ! It was my older sister's birthday celebration ! Me and my family had an awesome dinner and my aunts treated us. Pweet pweet! Hahahaha. We had a very very very very expensive dinner. Seriously. It was over RM400. o.o But it was a good meal so.. What the heck! xD As long as my parent don't pay, its okay. (Y) Besides that, my birthday is also around the corner. But I am not gonna celebrate it in Malaysia ! Yes baby ! Once in a life time? :D

loves,
s.f

I live my hard life.

2011-01-22T22:18:00.007+08:00

I will be strong.

I was wandering around in a huge town,
Walking round and round,
Over and over,
It felt like I was repeating the same steps,
Again and again.

But I will fight,
No matter where I am,
And that's when you'll find me,
Reaching for the sky.

Its a promise :)

2011-01-17T16:28:00.013+08:00

Hey ! Alright, I'm back. I did promise to write again right? Hahahaha. I'm glad some of you enjoy reading my blog. Though I am not that proud of it, some of you might just be exaggerating but its alright. Thanks for all the support. Anyways, today is 17 January 2011 eh? So damn fast ! CHINESE NEW YEAR IS COMING ! $money$ is the first priority, correct? Teehee! And whats more is that my birthday is coming soon. And at that time, I'll be long gone in Taylor Swift's concert <3 style="font-weight: bold;">Oh My God, did i mention that the anime black buttler is my all time favorite now ? Season 1 - 24 episodes+OVA and season 2 - 12 episodes in 2 days ! Btw, I was sick during those 2 days and that is why i skipped school (Y) Oh yes, it was awesome and still is. :)

No one can see the eye that feels,
Its lonesome,
Because people are blind, they are unable to see,
But why is it only I can feel?

Anyways, I wanna take a snooze now so tata :)

loves,
s.f

A Whole New World

2011-01-08T03:33:00.004+08:00

Hey blog readers. I know, I know. Its been like months since i last blogged. Well, i kinda got bored of it. I get bored of it once in a while. So sometimes i might just come back and write some things i guess. Its now 2011. No more 2010. So it means its PMR year. That sucks but at the same time it rocks? Confusing isn't it? I know, its like you can feel both feeling in one time. Lol. I don't make sense, I know that. Okay, so lets forget about it. Anyways, i want this year to be a special year. I am so not gonna do the same mistakes I've done last year so i will try my best to avoid them. Though its hard, I am sure i can do it. Support me always ! :D But i feel like 2011 would be an awesome year? Yeah? I have dreams, fantasies and wishes. I want it to come true this year. New year, new friends and new challenges.
*sigh*
I don't wanna grow up. I am already 15 years old! It sucks being 15. Actually, i just rather stay the same age forever. Wait, i think everyone would want to as well. :D Its awesome being young. Anyways, right now I have so many things on my mind. I can't sleep. Its been like this for the pass 2 nights.

Life. Its never easy.
Friends. Its difficult to choose.
Love. Its confusing.
Trust. Hard to know which is the truth.
Hope. When will it come.
Happiness. It comes and goes.
Forgiveness. Might be easy to forgive but to forget is another century.
Regrets. Unable to turn back.
Pain. Feel it, it hurts.
Future. Wait until tomorrow.
Forever. Remains for life.

Anyways, i better turn off the laptop now. So that means i have to stop blogging! I promise I'll blog again soon :) Ciao and good night! <3>

Memories will Always Remain

2010-11-17T17:33:00.007+08:00

The girls <3

Bestest classmates in 2010, 2 Omega

From the left : Nichkhun (Nadhirah), Minho (Me), Wuyoung (Anna), Taecyeon (Diana)
Camerawomen: Junsu (Nadrah)

San Francisco

Hugs and kisses ;)

Smiles all the way :D

From the left : Lisa, Hanis, Nina, Nayli

Gonna miss you guys TONS ;')

I am gonna miss 2010. :'( I'm gonna miss my classmates..
All those fun times I had! Time flies too fast.

loves,
s.f

Holidays

2010-11-16T13:32:00.002+08:00

Hey you! Yeah you! I was so depressed yesterday. I didn't know it was the last day of school and i skipped it! Damn! I skipped school when its the last day of school. Everyone had so much fun while I was at home being a dungu freak. Argh. D:< Whatever. Anyways, my holidays have started. Its gonna be a long holiday and next year is gonna be hell. Its PMR. Are you ready or not? (SHINee) I am not ready! I am not ready! I am gonna die. I don't wanna grow older. -sigh- Life.. Oh and today sucks. I can't play Sudden Attack because its like under maintenance and all. Damn, why does it have to be like this. Damn damn damn damn. Whatever, i hate you. k bye.

loves,
s.f

If its love

2010-11-08T17:01:00.002+08:00

Memory of love of the promised day,
You who I've been wanting to see are here.

There is a difference

2010-11-08T00:06:00.004+08:00

LALA CAT

Hey you blog readers! Lol. I sound like a retard. Hahaha. Whatever. Today was ohkay i guess. I went to church in the morning (obviously, its Sunday) and i was helping out for the Fund-raising activity! The youth were selling cookies and I was helping! It was fun since everyone was talking talking here and there. Hahaha, so i enjoyed myself. And oh my goodness, the cookies were FABULOUSLY DELICIOUS! My mum bought 2 containers of cookies. Teehee! Besides that, I got a new haircut. Its pretty short but my fringe look weird. I feel like crying. I don't know why its weird. I regret cutting my hair but at the same time i don't. Its confusing, i know. Hehehehe. Well, thats all for today. :) Chiao!

loves,
s.f

2010-11-05T00:46:00.004+08:00

The Expendables

Hey guys! I hope you guys had a wonderful day today cause mine was awesome! :)
Wanna know why its awesome? I take that as a yes. Lol. Today was awesome because i went to my BBBBF's house and i had so much fun. I was there with another friend of mine. We watched the movie 'The Expendables'! It was INCREDIBLE! They were so cool and i somehow find Jet Li hot. He was also cute in that show. The way he talked English made him sound cute. I love him in that show. Teehee! Besides that, we were all bitching about people. Wakaka, saying things which are meant to be said i guess. We were bitching for quite a long time and it was fun! Anyways, I think I am gonna gain weight. I ate so many junk food and I'm so bloated. I even cooked scramble eggs and french toast. I ate it and it was GOOOD. I hope i didn't make you hungry. Hehehe, okay then. That's all for now :)

loves,
s.f

Just The Way You Are

2010-11-03T18:06:00.002+08:00

Oh her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment her
She wont believe me
And its so, its so
Sad to think she don't see what I see

But every time she asks me do I look okay
I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Her nails, her nails
I could kiss them all day if she'd let me
Her laugh, her laugh
She hates but I think its so sexy

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Oh you know, you know, you know
Id never ask you to change
If perfect is what you're searching for
Then just stay the same

So don't even bother asking
If you look okay
You know I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

The way you are
The way you are
Girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Your Beautiful

2010-11-03T11:26:00.003+08:00

A girl might not look pretty on the outside,
But they are always pretty on the inside.
If your think no one can see that in you,
I know i can.
You don't have try to be perfect,
Cause your perfect just the way you are.

Wednesday :)

2010-11-03T11:12:00.002+08:00

Hey! Guess what? My exams are finally over! Thank God! So now I'm skipping school. A lot.. XD I even skipped school today. Its sad that my house doesn't have a car. I was suppose to go to my friend's house. Stupid sister took the car. Now i have to wait for her until she comes back. Dang, i hate it. Anyways, I am now pretty happy. I am currently obsessed with Sudden Attack, thanks to Syahmie Ismade. -.- That game is awesome but I am such a noobie/newbie. Hahhaha, what a pain in the ass. I wanna be a pro damn it. Great, now i am so into talking about Sudden Attack. Okay okay, change subject. Last night was something special. I know i don't like that guy but its been a long time since i last talked to him so i felt happy when we were chatting and stuff. But its sad that he wasn't the old him i use to know. I guess its because I've confessed to him before. Wakakaka, it was so stupid of me. But i am happy he rejected me because he was a jerk. Well, since he is a jerk, lets not talk about him. I have to go now. I am gonna go my friend's house soon (another 3 hours). Lol, toodles! XD

loves,
s.f

2010-11-03T02:10:00.002+08:00

Hey, i know its been really really long since i last blogged. I am pretty sorry i haven't been updating my blog. I kinda got bored of it but i'm gonna start again since people have started reading my blog. I am not really sure whether they came to read my poems or just pass by.. but i hope they do read my poems. I also hope you guys enjoy it and give some meaning to your life.

Don't ever give up,
Life has their ups and downs.
One day, you will meet your fairytale,
Like how i have met mine<3

loves,
s.f

(Eng) 100120 Hi Bb Ep1 3/5

2010-09-15T23:16:00.001+08:00

This video is HILARIOUS!

Kat-tun

2010-09-15T03:17:00.003+08:00

Taguchi Junnosuke <333

Taguchi Junnosuke <333

Nakamaru Yuichi <33

Nakamaru Yuichi <33

Akanishi Jin <3

Tatsuya Ueda :D

Tanaka Koki :)

Kazuya Kamenashi :p

Members of Kat-tun :
- Kazuya Kamenashi (The leader)
- Taguchi Junnosuke (The one with a nice smile)
- Nakamaru Yuichi (The funny nose)
- Tatsuya Ueda (The wierd looking)
- Tanaka Koki (The raper)

Former members :
- Akanishi Jin (The bad boy)

I am back baby!

2010-09-13T22:47:00.012+08:00

Going The Distance

Me bowling :)

Me and Callie at the bowling centre <3

Callie, i love you too <3>We are the awesome foursome :D

Giggles all the way

Peace out dawg ;D

Jane <3

Hey guys ! Sorry i haven't been updating my blog. My laptop charger had some problem . But now i am back ! :) Anyways, as you can see.. Today was such an awesome day! I went out with my four smexy ladies that is Janey, Callie, Nabila and Shereh. We were there for about more then 6 hours? Hahaha, it was such an awesome and tiring day. Jane was there late since her dad changed his mind at the last minute. So before she reached there. Me, Callie, Nabila and Shereh were doing a little activities. Well, i was there a little bit too early so i had to wait for them. After they were there, we all went to A&W ! We were kinda choosing a game to play between bowling and archery. But in the end we went to play bowling. It was fun.. Very the fun! Hahaha. I got second in the game. Nabila got first and Callie got third. After that, we went to the arcade. Played racing and we also played a shooting game called RAMBO ! It was such an awesome game. I love it! Me and Callie was like shooting non stop until our hands were cram. XD After all those noisy fun, finally the princess Jane came. XD And we went to watch a movie called "Going The Distance" as you can see up there. That movie was an awesome comedy, romance show. Hahaha! We all enjoyed it. After the movies, we went walking and we ate as well. Took some pictures.. And went straight home. Haha ! Well, thats all for today then. <3>*winks*

loves,
s.f

2010-09-07T16:32:00.006+08:00

BABY SAYS : WHATS UP BABY! WANNA HOP IN THE TUB WITH ME? LETS GET FREAKY

CAN'T SEE SIGNS?

I FEEL SO GOOD...

2010-09-07T16:28:00.002+08:00

Hey! I changed my blog skin! Isn't it awesome!? I am so loving it. But i ain't loving the school holidays I'm having. I have nothing to talk about. That sucks man. D:

2010-09-07T14:11:00.008+08:00

Music Is Everything

My favorite songs :
> Laza Morgan - This girl
> Fergie - Finally
> Madcon - Beggin
> Bitter:Sweet - I Get What I Want
> Samantha Jade - Step Up
> Alicia Keys - Unthinkable (I'm Ready)
> Jesse McCartney - Up
> Get Cool - Let Me C It
> Keke Palmer - Bottoms Up
> Chenelle - Teach Me How To Dance
> Jay Sean Ft. Nicki Minaj - 2010 (It Ain't The End)
> Sugarland - Stuck Like Glue
> The Ready Set - Love Like Woe
> Sean Kingston Ft. Nicki Minaj - Letting Go (Dutty Love)
> Yamashita Tomohisa - Loveless

2010-09-06T17:20:00.014+08:00

"MANGA & MAHWA FREAK"

My top 3 favorite manga:
- Junjou Romantica
- Koisuru Boukun
- Sengoku Basara

My top 5 favorite mahwa:
- Idol Shopping
- Boy of the Female Wolf
- My Boyfriend is a Vampire
- Miunohri to Swan
- He is Dedicated to Roses

My favorite author:
- Han Yu-rang
- Hwang Mi Ri
- Nakamura Shungiku
- Yamane Ayano
- Ike Reibun
- Takagi Ryou
- Shimotsuki Kairi
- Chitose Piyoko
- Higashino You
- Shinba Rize
- Shinjo Mayu
- Asami Tohjoh

Misaki x Usagi

Date Masamune x Sanada Yukimura

2010-09-06T16:54:00.007+08:00

Hey everyone! So, today is Monday. Yay, such an awesome day. -.- That was just sarcasm.. I am having tuition today and that sucks. Whats worst is that my Janey isn't gonna be there ! And my Sheri might not go too. Why does it have to be this way?! :(

loves,
s.f

specially for you :)

2010-09-03T14:31:00.013+08:00

You do know the you is who so here i am saying you are my special one

I promise to protect you because you are my only one,
No matter where i go,
I will always take you with me,
Promise me you will never leave me either,
So don't forget the promises we made.

You are special to me not as a lover but as a best friend,
So i cherish you from the bottom of my heart no matter what,
You will never find anyone like me in this world,
Because i can't find any friend like you.

Its pretty weird for me to do this but i don't know. I guess i am crazy. XD

loves,
s.f

2010-09-03T14:25:00.002+08:00

Hey-yo! As you can see, i skipped school. Its already holidays for me! Yay ! :D But i kinda feel bored. -.- A lot of my friends went to school, I'm pretty shocked. :O But I'm sure they will enjoy themselves since school is gonna have a Hari Raya celebration. That was what i heard from some of my friends yesterday. Okay, so now i am waiting for my video to load but its taking such a long time to load. Please load faster. :)

loves,
s.f

2010-09-03T11:44:00.004+08:00

SmileForTheCamera

Fergie - Finally

Ever since I was a baby girl I had a dream
Cinderella theme
Crazy as it seems
Always knew that deep inside that there would come that day
But I would have to wait
Make so many mistakes
I couldn't comprehend
As I watched it unfold
This classic story told I left it in the cold
Walking through an open door that led me back to you
Each one unlocking more of the truth

I finally stopped tripping on my youth
I finally got lost inside of you
I finally know that I needed to grow
And finally my mate has met my soul

Finally
Now my destiny can begin
Though we will have our differences
Something strange and new is happening

Finally
Now my life doesn't seem so bad
It's the best that I've ever had
Give my love to him finally

I remember the beginning you already knew
I acted like a fool
Just trying to be cool
Fronting like it didn't matter
I just ran away
And on another phase
Was lost in my own space
Found what its like to hurt selfishly
Scared to give of me
Afraid to just believe
I was in a jealous, insecure, pathetic place
Stumbled through the mess that I have made

Finally got out of my own way
I've Finally started living for today
I finally know that I needed to grow
And finally my mate has met my soul

Finally
Now my destiny can begin
Though we will have a our differences
Something strange and new is happening
Finally
Now my life doesn't seem so bad
It's the best that I've ever had
Gave my love to him Finally

Finally, Finally

Finally
Now my destiny can begin
Though we will have our differences
Something beautiful is happening, happening

Finally
Now my life doesn't seem so bad
It's the best that I've ever had
Give my love to him finally

Finally, Finally, finally

its time to smile :)

2010-09-02T10:59:00.006+08:00

I just realized everybody has a problem which is almost the same. Its either about friends or family or boyfriend/girlfriend. Betraying, abusing, hurting, loving.. Everything is the same story and has the same ending.
HAHAHAHAHA.
This is stupid alright !
I am just really bored. I have nothing to do now. I guess its gonna be worst next week since its gonna be school holidays.. Tomorrow is the last day of school. Wooptedoo! -.- Oh and I'm kinda helping out Jane for her birthday party! I am pretty much helping her to plan things like games? XD I don't know. Lol. But its not confirmed yet. So yeah, gonna wait for her mum's answer . :)

loves,
s.f

merdeka !

2010-08-31T21:23:00.003+08:00

hey there! HAPPY MERDEKA DAY, 1 MALAYSIA! :) Well, I just came back from RSR ( Refreshing Spring Resort). To be honest, i have no idea where is that place but i know its about 1 1/2 hours from here. XD So yeah, that place is pretty new and really nice. It really is refreshing alright! Okay, that was lame.-.- Anyways, i was out the whole day, obviously. I am so tired ! I'll tell you why! Its because I've been going in a jungle walking and walking for 3 whole hours! I was sweating like a pig! It felt like i just took a shower. My whole shirt was wet, My neck was dripping water. I was like " OHMYGOD, ITS LIKE A SAUNA IN HERE " My legs were cramming too! And it still is. XD But i did enjoy myself. There were leeches inside the jungle too but I'm glad it didn't suck any of my blood. :D Besides that, the jungle was really slippery. I wasn't wearing proper shoes for that so i slipped a few times but there were things to hold on and a few people helped me so it was okay. After the jungle tracking, there was a van which drove us back to the resort and fusssssh, I immediately jumped into the hot spring. It was so relaxing. I even when to the cold spring. I was swimming and i even closed my eyes to take some rest in the cold spring. It was too awesome ! I enjoyed myself so much! <3

loves,
s.f

my tortoise, roadie

2010-08-30T01:41:00.012+08:00

Roadie

Hellooooo, i guess you have met my new pet tortoise, Roadie. It is huge man! Isn't it just the cutest? Hey, watch out, it BITES. GRRR. Hahahaha, naah, i'm just joking with cha. :) Anyways, since you've met Roadie already. Let me tell you about how we got it. More to found it. ;) Okay, so the story starts from ONCE UPON A TIME..

Once upon a time, me and my family was on our way to church and we saw something. At first i didn't know what the heck was that until my parents stopped the car and shouted " OH MY GOD, ITS A TORTOISE!". I was like what the heck? Its a rat and you don't have to be so jakun about it! How can you stop the car for a frigging rat! My mum asked my dad to take it so he got off the car and took it in. I looked at it and i was like " OH MY GOD, IT IS A TORTOISE!". Eventually, i was being the jakun about it. XD So it was pretty stupid. So we took it into the car. It also kinda pee-d when my dad was holding it. Guess it got too scared until the pee just terkeluar just like that. It was smelly, disgusting and smelly. So now its in my house, in a cage living peacefully(I hope). The end.

Thank you for your attention. XD Oh and, we gave the name to the tortoise Roadie because we found it on the rode side. -.- What a story eh? So now i have a house full of fishes, one tortoise and a dog, Choco who gets jealous over Roadie. :) How awesome is that?

loves,
s.f

thanks to boredom

2010-08-28T22:22:00.007+08:00

I was pretty much bored so i was finding stupid pictures. XD

YOU TALKING TO ME?!

it was yesterday

2010-08-28T12:29:00.007+08:00

Vampire sucks

Step up 3D

Awesome scene

She is awesome :)

Moose <3

Hey! Guess what?! Yesterday was the awesmest ever! I went out with my beloved honey, Jane. We went to OU. Before that we went to eat breakfast in Village Park. The Nasi Lemak was yummy! (Y)

We went to OU and watched 2 movies which was Vampire Sucks and Step up 3D. As you can see up there. >.< We both were really excited yesterday. But we were kinda late for the Vampire Sucks movie because we were buying popcorn and thanks to those stupid bajet chinese boys in front of us who were taking such a long time buying. -.- Me and Jane was like cursing them. Anyways, Vampire Sucks was okay. It should be PG18. There were too many inappropriate scenes ! But it was pretty funny. More to lame and stupid. XD Besides that, the Step Up 3D movie was like fusssssssh! Awesome! We didn't have any popcorn but we brought in some sweets. Curi-curi masuk. Wakakakaka! Step up 3D, they dance like shitty awesome! It was so sexy! XD I wanna watch it again! Damn it! Moose was so cute, Luc was pretty hot. XD Jane loves Luc. Moose is still a greater dancer then Luc is, Jane. :P Oh well, we don't really care. As long as we did have a great time then yeah. And we did. Lol. Thanks for the awesome memorable time Janey! <3 Lets do it more often and invite Sasa! :)

loves,
s.f

2010-08-25T09:45:00.003+08:00

This is what i see but its only a dream

A dream within a dream by Edgar Allan Poe

Take this kiss upon the brow!
And, in parting from you now,
Thus much let me avow--
You are not wrong, who deem
That my days have been a dream;
Yet if hope has flown away
In a night, or in none,
Is it therefor the less gone?
All that we see or seem
Is but a dream within a dream.

I stand amid the roar
Of a surf-tormented shore,
And i hold within my hand
Grains of the golden sand--
How few yet how they creep
Through my fingers to the deep,
While i weep--while i weep!
O God! can i not grasp
Them with a tighter clasp?
O God! can i not save
one from the pitiless wave?
Is all that we see or seem
But a dream within a dream?

2010-08-25T09:13:00.004+08:00

Hey, its really in the morning now. I am so frigging tired because i slept at 1.oo and woke up at 8.00. I am use to it but its just that somehow i am tired today. Shit. Anyways, i have to go to singing practice later and ya know what? I didn't even know that we are gonna sing this Thursday which is TOMORROW?! Damn lah, i wanna sleep again! :(

loves,
s.f

Its all about him

2010-08-25T00:44:00.008+08:00

I know you will always hear me no matter how near or far you are.

His voice was nothing special,
But to me, it had a certain ring in it.

He kept repeating those three sweet words to me,
Whispering them so softly and gently into my ear,
I listened to every word you said,
That it kept piercing through me like an arrow shooting in me,
Breaking me into several pieces.

how much more can i love you

2010-08-24T22:47:00.007+08:00

AWWWWWWWWWW <3>

Is there a limit to how much you can love a somebody?

There is no one in his world i could ever love more than i love you,
If i could be the most important person in your life,
Then oh, how wonderful would my life be.
It can't be anyone else but you,
Because if its not you,
I would've died millions of years ago.

No matter how much i hurt you and get hurt by you,
I somehow find a thousand miles far from having to hate you.
Loving someone so insanely and helplessly,
I will never love like this ever again.

this is shit

2010-08-24T20:32:00.007+08:00

Hey, today was a normal day, not that exiting or anything. XD But i got a few of my exam results and its like SHIT. I mean i did pretty good in my Math and Kemahiran Hidup but the others was so bad! My sejarah, geografi, bahasa melayu. Oh Mee Goreng!

KH - 78%
SEJ - 56%
GEO - 58%
BM - 42%
MATH - 56%

Okay, i know my math is a C but its better den an E right? XD Oh well, just gotta try harder the next time. lol, anyways, today, i joined choir or some singing thingy together with a friend. Well, mainly it was because another friend of mine asked me to replace her so i was just doing a favor. So yeah, that's how it happened. I was like pretty nervous and i didn't really felt comfortable but its better doing something then sitting around doing nothing. :) HEHEHEHE. okay then, thatsy allsy. >.< hehehehe. :)

loves,
s.f

a dreamer

2010-08-23T11:38:00.007+08:00

I've dream about being someone different that no one else have ever met before. I want to go around the world and touch people's heart with my own words. I want to show them things they've never seen before. I want to express my feelings to the world. I want to express it through the words i use. As i travel, i also want to see wondrous things, pretty things, beautiful things. I want to walk down a street where there are beautiful lights down the way and make the troubles in my mind go away forever. I want everything that no has dream before.

2010-08-23T01:56:00.004+08:00

I hate watching it in real live, i prefer shows in anime. Anime guys are so hot but the girls are so a let down! But shiiiiiiiiit, i gotta stop being obsess with anime ! THEY AREN'T REAL! This is another reason why i'm not in love with any guy, obsession over anime. >.<

2010-08-23T01:06:00.002+08:00

Shit, i have no freaking idea what did i do to my blog. SHIT SHIT SHIT. i don't know how to turn it back to normal.. i don't think i can.. DAMN. :'( SHIT SHIT SHIT

2010-08-23T00:14:00.007+08:00

I hate you because of everything you've done, but i love you because i'm stupid.

The cries of my soul,
Its growing stronger and stronger,
Because your completely different when it comes to that girl,
You never smiled like that to me.

I might live in a world where anybody and everybody would envy,
It seems like i already have everything i could ever want,
However, what i truly desire will never fall into my grasp.

2010-08-22T01:30:00.007+08:00

Its time for me to stop waiting, but time for you to come running.

I'm not the type of girl everyone will notice,
I'm just a girl that everyone wouldn't want to know,
Because of how i am now,
I am loosing my control because of you.

You've taken my heart,
So now its time for you to take the responsibility,
I can't wait no longer,
Because waiting for you is like waiting for a raindrop to fall.

Take me to places where you want to be,
Just you and me,
With no one else as a disturbance,
But just us together with a nice fragrance.

2010-08-22T01:24:00.010+08:00

This was how i felt when i first saw YOU. :)

A smile full of happiness,
Its been a long time since i last saw someone smile like that,
With such sweetness.

But seriously, i don't know what to do with you,
Your smile is so beautiful that it touches my heart,
Even the parts which aren't able to be touched,
Because as long as you are here with me,
I'll always be happy,
And this is how my daily life will be.

2010-08-22T00:36:00.007+08:00

I thought about this quote. I'm not sure whether it is a quote or not. But i thought about it when i was thinking about things. Anyways, here goes.

" It's not the anger that is taking over,
Its the sadness that tears me apart,
So God i'm here waiting,
Begging for You to take those away. "

2010-08-22T00:18:00.005+08:00

Hey, i know its Sunday but lets talk about Saturday. XD I was like so busy the whole day! It was so fun and awesome! My mummy and older sister baked cupcakes for my younger sister's birthday party and it is awesome! Then we did the icing and it was so fun! Its like a once in a life time family bonding on SATURDAY ! Ah shit, i wanna post the pictures of the cupcakes here but i lost the card where i can transfer pictures to the computer. Plus, the computer is like shit-o! And ya know, my younger sister is so lucky. Me and my older sister spent RM70++++ just for her birthday present! And we never buy for each other like that expensive! WHAT THE HECK?! She is really lucky, hell yeah. She should be grateful. :) Anyways, i don't really care. My sisters are the awesomes ! <3>

2010-08-20T23:43:00.005+08:00

This is what happens in life :')

When my confidence comes,
Everything starts to tumble down,
The sacrifice i made in our love,
Was all i had in it.

I'm sorry if i'm not perfect,
Maybe this relationship of ours might not go on forever,
The words of love,
My love for you,
Will eventually fade away.

When one of the pieces in our love,
Suddenly was touched and pasted back,
Somehow i wish i could live longer,
But when its the end,
It will just start to break to those several pieces again,
And now i know,
Its never fixable.

2010-08-20T22:39:00.010+08:00

HEEEEY! I'm so happy that i'm finally back after a whole week of not blogging! Not only blogging, i haven't been on facebook and msn too! SHIT, I MISS EVERYONE ! I have so many things so say. I was busy the whole week because of exams. It was like damn shit yaaww but i did study hard and i was pretty shocked.

EXAM IS OVER!

YAAAAAAAAAAAY!
Okay, party over. XD

Besides that, i'm also really happy because i kinda told a lie to a guy who likes me. He was pretty much being annoying so i told him i have an AWESOME HOT BOYFRIEND now.I know its not right but he was getting on my nerves. At first i did thought he was handsome, sweet, nice and all but i guess i started disliking him instead. I do feel bad for him, i feel sorry too. I don't wanna hurt him until he isn't gonna talk to me. I know lying isn't anything better but i guess its okay for now ( until he finds out ) -sigh- Shit stress. -,- But then i realized that " I somehow like guys who won't like me back ". XD it was pretty stupid.

Anyways, 2 days ago was my younger sister's birthday.. I was kinda disappointed that i was the last in the family to wish her happy birthday. But i'm usually the last to wish them, as in my sisters and parents.. I kinda feel really bad.:( Well, this week was 'HER' birthday as well. I didn't know what to do or what to give her. I was pretty much nervous. But in the end, i gave her a letter ( the truth about all the things i lied ), a piece of secret recipe cake ( i prevented from buying for her chocolate since she hates them ) and some baby crystal to make it more not simple. I know she did those things to me but i guess doing this would mean something. It wasn't anything special but she did say thank you and i was relieved.

Oh and my older sister was like kinda sick, she vomited and she coughed out blood and stuffs. It was pretty scary but nothing serious. Thank God ! i know right. I did mention about my younger sister's birthday 2 days ago, well yeah. she is having a birthday party this week! WOOHOOO! i can't wait! :)
MY ONE AND ONLY BEST FRIEND IS GONNA COME ! <3

loves,
s.f

GREAT NEWS

2010-08-14T12:11:00.001+08:00

THIS IS SO FRIGGING AWESOME !!

I AM GONNA GO GO TO KOREA ! :D

ITS SATURDAY

2010-08-14T11:27:00.007+08:00

HEY! Its Saturday!
Saturdays are awesome right?! No stress but just relax and be busy. I had wash my shoes this morning and i scrubbed them really hard. My hand hurts -.-
Well, today sure is gonna be a busy busy day as usual. :)
I'm really really really obsessed with the game
" ZOMBIES ATE MY NEIGHBORS "
Crazy freak ass! I really have no idea what to say here now. Its pretty boring.
Ugh, whatever.
TTYL

loves,
s.f

just came back :)

2010-08-13T23:58:00.002+08:00

Hey y'all! wazzzzzzzzap ? well, i just came back from some place. i don't even know where did i go. i'm so blurr. anyways, since i'm back home now, i'm pretty much bored. everyone is asleep and as usual, i'm the only one awake. everyone is so tired i guess. its pretty scary being the only one awake in the house. imagine if something happened and you watched it all with your own eyes, SCAAAAAARRYYY.
okay, i'm crapping right now. don't read all those crap talks. i don't have much to say though.. but i've been thinking a lot lately. my minds like full of thoughts that i don't even know where to start. phew, its pretty hard living life. but its better then just being bored and dull right?! :D
well, i guess i better go to sleep now.
TTYT
(if there is such word ; TALK TO YOU TOMORROW)

loves,
s.f

GAME RULES !

2010-08-13T23:52:00.004+08:00

OMG, ANY OF YOU KNOW A GAME CALLED " ZOMBIE AT MY NEIGHBOURS"?
ITS KINDA AN OLD GAME BUT ITS FRIGGING AWESOME !
I LOVE IT !

Try playing this game, its really fun! i love it! :D

2010-08-13T23:46:00.003+08:00

Don't worry about what your future will be.
You will always find the one,
Just be patient and you will see.

2010-08-13T23:33:00.003+08:00

I might not be able to find the one,
But just looking into the sky,
I know you are the one.

Enjoying the scenery of the sky,
Thinking about you while imagining your face in the clouds,
Watching over me and guiding me,
Oh how special will that be.

Telling me how happy you are when the sun is shinning,
Telling me how much you miss me when the skies turn dark,
And telling me how much you love me with the drops of rain.

I love you, i want you, i need you, i miss you,
Hearing those words from you through the sky,
Its amazingly beautiful.

2010-08-13T01:45:00.005+08:00

Its almost 2.00 am. About another 15 minutes more. XD
Its really late, i guess its time for me to sleep.
Though i haven't been having enough sleep, haven't been sleeping well lately.
>.<

There will always be a path for me to follow

2010-08-13T01:10:00.008+08:00

happiness is not a destination, its a method of life

2010-08-13T01:06:00.002+08:00

2010-08-12T23:57:00.006+08:00

I havent been to church since I don’t remember when
Things were goin’ great ‘til they fell apart again
So I listened to the preacher as he told me what to do
He said you can’t go hatin’ others who have done wrong to you
Sometimes we get angry, but we must not condemn
Let the good Lord do His job and you just pray for them

I pray your brakes go out runnin’ down a hill
I pray a flowerpot falls from a window sill and knocks you in the head like I’d like to
I pray your birthday comes and nobody calls
I pray you’re flyin’ high when your engine stalls
I pray all your dreams never come true
Just know where ever you are honey, I pray for you

I’m really glad I found my way to church
‘Cause I’m already feelin’ better and I thank God for the words
Yeah I’m goin’to take the high road
And do what the preacher told me to do

You keep messin’ up and I’ll keep prayin’ for you

I pray your tire blows out at 100 and 10
I pray you pass out drunk with your best friend and wake up with his and her tattoos

I pray your brakes go out runnin’ down a hill
I pray a flowerpot falls from a window sill and knocks you in the head like I’d like to
I pray your birthday comes and nobody calls
I pray you’re flyin’ high when your engine stalls
I pray all your dreams never come true
Just know wherever you are, near or far, in your house or in your car,
wherever you are honey, I pray for you.

This song touched my heart. Its so meaningful.
I hope it touches yours too because it means everything.
And i will always pray for you. :)

loves,
s.f

2010-08-12T23:34:00.003+08:00

There are things that even i don't understand.
Everyone has that feeling, i know.

Look into my eyes,
Tell me what you see,
Is it happiness?
Is it sadness?
Is it loneliness?
Is it joy?
Is it fear?
Or is it pain?
Is it something even you don't understand?
Tell me the answers i've been wanting to know,
Because even me myself do not understand.

So Lord, tell me those answer through the dreams i dream and let me understand what are you trying to tell me.

2010-08-12T23:19:00.005+08:00

XOXO GLEE

Finn : *stares*
Kurt: *dies*
Don't you just love this picture?
I think its like awesome! HAHAHAHA! thanks to Intan Suraya!!
i took it from her blog, NO! I STOLE IT! XD
thanks Intan! <3

2010-08-12T22:40:00.006+08:00

This is specially for the special someone whose been there for me. Your the best friend I've ever had and i treasure you, though you might not be there for me all the time but i know that wherever i go, your always there. That's why your different, your special and you are my everything.. :)

Your smile is like my star,
Your laughter is like my light,
Your voice is like my music.

Your not pretty but your beautiful,
Your not smart but your wise,
Your not nice but your kind,
Your not great but your awesome,
Your not important to me but your everything to me.

I don't like you but i love you,
I don't treat you as my best friend but i treat you as my special friend.

I can't always be there for you but no matter what, i'll always watch you.
And i wouldn't be able to live without you.
That's what true friend means. <3

loves
s.f

2010-08-12T21:51:00.004+08:00

There are some thoughts in my mind thinking about things like "am i wrong?" or "was i right?" or "what im doing is it the right thing?" or "why is she doing this to me?".
I use to think that some questions have no answers to it but actually, every question has an answer. but sometimes finding an answer isn't easy. Especially when the other isn't telling the truth. We mustn't give up on finding an answer because every way leads you to a new path. There will be no ending. :)

The things i've told,
Was never true,
It was all a lie,
Because of you.

Its not because i didn't have a reason,
But it was because of the troubles i've given,
I'm not that brave,
But i'm always afraid,
So forgive me if i am wrong,
I'm not always right.

I will not tell you the words of truth,
I'm afraid of what you'll say,
Because i'm scared to face the truth and dare.

I hope that the person whom this is for will read. Because you actually mean a lot to me and by the way, i'm still keeping the watch you gave me. There isn't any reason for me to throw it away. Because i've always treasured you, i just didn't know what to say because i've been lying to you and you kept accusing me. I don't hate you but the only reason i lied was because i was afraid of everything. I'm sorry is the only word i could say because there isn't anything else i could do but made you mad. So i guess its better living this way. Thank you for everything. :')

loves

s.f

HELLO

2010-08-12T10:46:00.004+08:00

its morning now, time to wakey wakey!
and go to hell again.
i've been living a dull life now but then it started to get exciting since the incident happened last week.
well, i just gotta forget all about it and just relax cause my exams are next week and i haven't study yet? i'm so dead, hell yeah baby!
i guess im just gonna fail and be locked up in jail.
awesome huh?
exams are just the worst don't ya think so?
i guess that's just it eh.
FTW

loves

s.f

2010-08-12T01:56:00.003+08:00

the feeling of hurt, nobody would ever want it.

When i first saw you,
I thought you were cool,
I also thought you were amazing,
Cause you kept on singing.

Your voice was like and angel,
Like a bell which just jingled,
I fell in love at first sight,
And i knew it wasn't right.

Since that day you were always on my mind,
I wanted you to be all mine,
I prayed everyday from morning till night,
I wanted you to hold me tight.

But after i found out i was being such a fool,
I didn't know you were using me like a tool,
I felt so sad so painful so hurt,
You abandoned me like i was a bird.

Since that day until today,
I couldn't stop thinking bout what you say,
I didn't move on but just stood still,
Like a little girl who was too ill.

this was how i felt when i got hurt. :')

2010-08-12T01:44:00.002+08:00

I was in love with him, he was my everything. but he didn't love me back. i guess that's how it feels when you let your heart go to someone who wont take it.

I yearn for his touch,
His eyes i couldn't resist,
I keep craving for more,
I want to be held by him,
Because i'm overflowing with feelings deep inside me.

I've never met anyone like him,
i'm like a prisoner in his dark eyes since the moment we've met,
And i know there is no turning back,
Because i've been irrevocably poisoned by his sweetness.

Then i found out,
You weren't serious about me,
But i though you played with my feelings,
I just simply couldn't forget how warm your kiss was,
I don't think i'll ever be able to kill my feelings for him,
Even knowing that it was all a pretend,
Because my feelings for him will always remain in my heart.

And now,
Whenever i see him,
My body starts to burn with desire just from the sight of him,
My heart throbs with feelings for him,
But i'll just have to live with these for the rest of my life,
Even if it hurts me.

2010-08-12T01:32:00.005+08:00

I'm sure this is what every girl wants.

My love for you is really true,
My heart is red,
It isn't blue,
Because all i could think about is you.

The words, the leisure,
The touch, the closure,
I will always treasure,
Because its my deepest pleasure.

The yearning of my soul tells me how much i love you,
At that time you told me you love me too,
And now i'm not afraid of us being apart,
Because i know we love each other from the bottom of our hearts.

2008-06-06T22:21:00.000+08:00

YAMADA RYOSUKE IS

THE HOTTEST ;)

2008-06-01T22:20:00.000+08:00

my sister forced me to do this blog , so here is it ! :)