merdeka !

hey there! HAPPY MERDEKA DAY, 1 MALAYSIA! :) Well, I just came back from RSR ( Refreshing Spring Resort). To be honest, i have no idea where is that place but i know its about 1 1/2 hours from here. XD So yeah, that place is pretty new and really nice. It really is refreshing alright! Okay, that was lame.-.- Anyways, i was out the whole day, obviously. I am so tired ! I'll tell you why! Its because I've been going in a jungle walking and walking for 3 whole hours! I was sweating like a pig! It felt like i just took a shower. My whole shirt was wet, My neck was dripping water. I was like " OHMYGOD, ITS LIKE A SAUNA IN HERE " My legs were cramming too! And it still is. XD But i did enjoy myself. There were leeches inside the jungle too but I'm glad it didn't suck any of my blood. :D Besides that, the jungle was really slippery. I wasn't wearing proper shoes for that so i slipped a few times but there were things to hold on and a few people helped me so it was okay. After the jungle tracking, there was a van which drove us back to the resort and fusssssh, I immediately jumped into the hot spring. It was so relaxing. I even when to the cold spring. I was swimming and i even closed my eyes to take some rest in the cold spring. It was too awesome ! I enjoyed myself so much! <3

loves,
s.f

my tortoise, roadie

Roadie

Hellooooo, i guess you have met my new pet tortoise, Roadie. It is huge man! Isn't it just the cutest? Hey, watch out, it BITES. GRRR. Hahahaha, naah, i'm just joking with cha. :) Anyways, since you've met Roadie already. Let me tell you about how we got it. More to found it. ;) Okay, so the story starts from ONCE UPON A TIME..

Once upon a time, me and my family was on our way to church and we saw something. At first i didn't know what the heck was that until my parents stopped the car and shouted " OH MY GOD, ITS A TORTOISE!". I was like what the heck? Its a rat and you don't have to be so jakun about it! How can you stop the car for a frigging rat! My mum asked my dad to take it so he got off the car and took it in. I looked at it and i was like " OH MY GOD, IT IS A TORTOISE!". Eventually, i was being the jakun about it. XD So it was pretty stupid. So we took it into the car. It also kinda pee-d when my dad was holding it. Guess it got too scared until the pee just terkeluar just like that. It was smelly, disgusting and smelly. So now its in my house, in a cage living peacefully(I hope). The end.

Thank you for your attention. XD Oh and, we gave the name to the tortoise Roadie because we found it on the rode side. -.- What a story eh? So now i have a house full of fishes, one tortoise and a dog, Choco who gets jealous over Roadie. :) How awesome is that?

loves,
s.f

thanks to boredom

I was pretty much bored so i was finding stupid pictures. XD

YOU TALKING TO ME?!

it was yesterday

Vampire sucks

Step up 3D

Awesome scene

She is awesome :)

Moose <3

Hey! Guess what?! Yesterday was the awesmest ever! I went out with my beloved honey, Jane. We went to OU. Before that we went to eat breakfast in Village Park. The Nasi Lemak was yummy! (Y)

We went to OU and watched 2 movies which was Vampire Sucks and Step up 3D. As you can see up there. >.< We both were really excited yesterday. But we were kinda late for the Vampire Sucks movie because we were buying popcorn and thanks to those stupid bajet chinese boys in front of us who were taking such a long time buying. -.- Me and Jane was like cursing them. Anyways, Vampire Sucks was okay. It should be PG18. There were too many inappropriate scenes ! But it was pretty funny. More to lame and stupid. XD Besides that, the Step Up 3D movie was like fusssssssh! Awesome! We didn't have any popcorn but we brought in some sweets. Curi-curi masuk. Wakakakaka! Step up 3D, they dance like shitty awesome! It was so sexy! XD I wanna watch it again! Damn it! Moose was so cute, Luc was pretty hot. XD Jane loves Luc. Moose is still a greater dancer then Luc is, Jane. :P Oh well, we don't really care. As long as we did have a great time then yeah. And we did. Lol. Thanks for the awesome memorable time Janey! <3 Lets do it more often and invite Sasa! :)

loves,
s.f

This is what i see but its only a dream


A dream within a dream by Edgar Allan Poe

Take this kiss upon the brow!
And, in parting from you now,
Thus much let me avow--
You are not wrong, who deem
That my days have been a dream;
Yet if hope has flown away
In a night, or in none,
Is it therefor the less gone?
All that we see or seem
Is but a dream within a dream.

I stand amid the roar
Of a surf-tormented shore,
And i hold within my hand
Grains of the golden sand--
How few yet how they creep
Through my fingers to the deep,
While i weep--while i weep!
O God! can i not grasp
Them with a tighter clasp?
O God! can i not save
one from the pitiless wave?
Is all that we see or seem
But a dream within a dream?

Hey, its really in the morning now. I am so frigging tired because i slept at 1.oo and woke up at 8.00. I am use to it but its just that somehow i am tired today. Shit. Anyways, i have to go to singing practice later and ya know what? I didn't even know that we are gonna sing this Thursday which is TOMORROW?! Damn lah, i wanna sleep again! :(

loves,
s.f

Its all about him

I know you will always hear me no matter how near or far you are.

His voice was nothing special,
But to me, it had a certain ring in it.

He kept repeating those three sweet words to me,
Whispering them so softly and gently into my ear,
I listened to every word you said,
That it kept piercing through me like an arrow shooting in me,
Breaking me into several pieces.

how much more can i love you

AWWWWWWWWWW <3>

Is there a limit to how much you can love a somebody?

There is no one in his world i could ever love more than i love you,
If i could be the most important person in your life,
Then oh, how wonderful would my life be.
It can't be anyone else but you,
Because if its not you,
I would've died millions of years ago.

No matter how much i hurt you and get hurt by you,
I somehow find a thousand miles far from having to hate you.
Loving someone so insanely and helplessly,
I will never love like this ever again.

this is shit

Hey, today was a normal day, not that exiting or anything. XD But i got a few of my exam results and its like SHIT. I mean i did pretty good in my Math and Kemahiran Hidup but the others was so bad! My sejarah, geografi, bahasa melayu. Oh Mee Goreng!

KH - 78%
SEJ - 56%
GEO - 58%
BM - 42%
MATH - 56%

Okay, i know my math is a C but its better den an E right? XD Oh well, just gotta try harder the next time. lol, anyways, today, i joined choir or some singing thingy together with a friend. Well, mainly it was because another friend of mine asked me to replace her so i was just doing a favor. So yeah, that's how it happened. I was like pretty nervous and i didn't really felt comfortable but its better doing something then sitting around doing nothing. :) HEHEHEHE. okay then, thatsy allsy. >.< hehehehe. :)

loves,
s.f

a dreamer

I've dream about being someone different that no one else have ever met before. I want to go around the world and touch people's heart with my own words. I want to show them things they've never seen before. I want to express my feelings to the world. I want to express it through the words i use. As i travel, i also want to see wondrous things, pretty things, beautiful things. I want to walk down a street where there are beautiful lights down the way and make the troubles in my mind go away forever. I want everything that no has dream before.

I hate watching it in real live, i prefer shows in anime. Anime guys are so hot but the girls are so a let down! But shiiiiiiiiit, i gotta stop being obsess with anime ! THEY AREN'T REAL! This is another reason why i'm not in love with any guy, obsession over anime. >.<

Shit, i have no freaking idea what did i do to my blog. SHIT SHIT SHIT. i don't know how to turn it back to normal.. i don't think i can.. DAMN. :'( SHIT SHIT SHIT

I hate you because of everything you've done, but i love you because i'm stupid.

The cries of my soul,
Its growing stronger and stronger,
Because your completely different when it comes to that girl,
You never smiled like that to me.

I might live in a world where anybody and everybody would envy,
It seems like i already have everything i could ever want,
However, what i truly desire will never fall into my grasp.

Its time for me to stop waiting, but time for you to come running.

I'm not the type of girl everyone will notice,
I'm just a girl that everyone wouldn't want to know,
Because of how i am now,
I am loosing my control because of you.

You've taken my heart,
So now its time for you to take the responsibility,
I can't wait no longer,
Because waiting for you is like waiting for a raindrop to fall.

Take me to places where you want to be,
Just you and me,
With no one else as a disturbance,
But just us together with a nice fragrance.

This was how i felt when i first saw YOU. :)

A smile full of happiness,
Its been a long time since i last saw someone smile like that,
With such sweetness.

But seriously, i don't know what to do with you,
Your smile is so beautiful that it touches my heart,
Even the parts which aren't able to be touched,
Because as long as you are here with me,
I'll always be happy,
And this is how my daily life will be.

I thought about this quote. I'm not sure whether it is a quote or not. But i thought about it when i was thinking about things. Anyways, here goes.

" It's not the anger that is taking over,
Its the sadness that tears me apart,
So God i'm here waiting,
Begging for You to take those away. "

Hey, i know its Sunday but lets talk about Saturday. XD I was like so busy the whole day! It was so fun and awesome! My mummy and older sister baked cupcakes for my younger sister's birthday party and it is awesome! Then we did the icing and it was so fun! Its like a once in a life time family bonding on SATURDAY ! Ah shit, i wanna post the pictures of the cupcakes here but i lost the card where i can transfer pictures to the computer. Plus, the computer is like shit-o! And ya know, my younger sister is so lucky. Me and my older sister spent RM70++++ just for her birthday present! And we never buy for each other like that expensive! WHAT THE HECK?! She is really lucky, hell yeah. She should be grateful. :) Anyways, i don't really care. My sisters are the awesomes ! <3>

This is what happens in life :')

When my confidence comes,
Everything starts to tumble down,
The sacrifice i made in our love,
Was all i had in it.

I'm sorry if i'm not perfect,
Maybe this relationship of ours might not go on forever,
The words of love,
My love for you,
Will eventually fade away.

When one of the pieces in our love,
Suddenly was touched and pasted back,
Somehow i wish i could live longer,
But when its the end,
It will just start to break to those several pieces again,
And now i know,
Its never fixable.

HEEEEY! I'm so happy that i'm finally back after a whole week of not blogging! Not only blogging, i haven't been on facebook and msn too! SHIT, I MISS EVERYONE ! I have so many things so say. I was busy the whole week because of exams. It was like damn shit yaaww but i did study hard and i was pretty shocked.

EXAM IS OVER!

YAAAAAAAAAAAY!
Okay, party over. XD

Besides that, i'm also really happy because i kinda told a lie to a guy who likes me. He was pretty much being annoying so i told him i have an AWESOME HOT BOYFRIEND now.I know its not right but he was getting on my nerves. At first i did thought he was handsome, sweet, nice and all but i guess i started disliking him instead. I do feel bad for him, i feel sorry too. I don't wanna hurt him until he isn't gonna talk to me. I know lying isn't anything better but i guess its okay for now ( until he finds out ) -sigh- Shit stress. -,- But then i realized that " I somehow like guys who won't like me back ". XD it was pretty stupid.

Anyways, 2 days ago was my younger sister's birthday.. I was kinda disappointed that i was the last in the family to wish her happy birthday. But i'm usually the last to wish them, as in my sisters and parents.. I kinda feel really bad.:( Well, this week was 'HER' birthday as well. I didn't know what to do or what to give her. I was pretty much nervous. But in the end, i gave her a letter ( the truth about all the things i lied ), a piece of secret recipe cake ( i prevented from buying for her chocolate since she hates them ) and some baby crystal to make it more not simple. I know she did those things to me but i guess doing this would mean something. It wasn't anything special but she did say thank you and i was relieved.

Oh and my older sister was like kinda sick, she vomited and she coughed out blood and stuffs. It was pretty scary but nothing serious. Thank God ! i know right. I did mention about my younger sister's birthday 2 days ago, well yeah. she is having a birthday party this week! WOOHOOO! i can't wait! :)
MY ONE AND ONLY BEST FRIEND IS GONNA COME ! <3

loves,
s.f

GREAT NEWS

THIS IS SO FRIGGING AWESOME !!

I AM GONNA GO GO TO KOREA ! :D

ITS SATURDAY

HEY! Its Saturday!
Saturdays are awesome right?! No stress but just relax and be busy. I had wash my shoes this morning and i scrubbed them really hard. My hand hurts -.-
Well, today sure is gonna be a busy busy day as usual. :)
I'm really really really obsessed with the game
" ZOMBIES ATE MY NEIGHBORS "
Crazy freak ass! I really have no idea what to say here now. Its pretty boring.
Ugh, whatever.
TTYL

loves,
s.f

just came back :)

Hey y'all! wazzzzzzzzap ? well, i just came back from some place. i don't even know where did i go. i'm so blurr. anyways, since i'm back home now, i'm pretty much bored. everyone is asleep and as usual, i'm the only one awake. everyone is so tired i guess. its pretty scary being the only one awake in the house. imagine if something happened and you watched it all with your own eyes, SCAAAAAARRYYY.
okay, i'm crapping right now. don't read all those crap talks. i don't have much to say though.. but i've been thinking a lot lately. my minds like full of thoughts that i don't even know where to start. phew, its pretty hard living life. but its better then just being bored and dull right?! :D
well, i guess i better go to sleep now.
TTYT
(if there is such word ; TALK TO YOU TOMORROW)

loves,
s.f

GAME RULES !

OMG, ANY OF YOU KNOW A GAME CALLED " ZOMBIE AT MY NEIGHBOURS"?
ITS KINDA AN OLD GAME BUT ITS FRIGGING AWESOME !
I LOVE IT !


Try playing this game, its really fun! i love it! :D

Don't worry about what your future will be.
You will always find the one,
Just be patient and you will see.

I might not be able to find the one,
But just looking into the sky,
I know you are the one.



Enjoying the scenery of the sky,
Thinking about you while imagining your face in the clouds,
Watching over me and guiding me,
Oh how special will that be.

Telling me how happy you are when the sun is shinning,
Telling me how much you miss me when the skies turn dark,
And telling me how much you love me with the drops of rain.

I love you, i want you, i need you, i miss you,
Hearing those words from you through the sky,
Its amazingly beautiful.

Its almost 2.00 am. About another 15 minutes more. XD
Its really late, i guess its time for me to sleep.
Though i haven't been having enough sleep, haven't been sleeping well lately.
>.<

There will always be a path for me to follow

happiness is not a destination, its a method of life

I havent been to church since I don’t remember when
Things were goin’ great ‘til they fell apart again
So I listened to the preacher as he told me what to do
He said you can’t go hatin’ others who have done wrong to you
Sometimes we get angry, but we must not condemn
Let the good Lord do His job and you just pray for them

I pray your brakes go out runnin’ down a hill
I pray a flowerpot falls from a window sill and knocks you in the head like I’d like to
I pray your birthday comes and nobody calls
I pray you’re flyin’ high when your engine stalls
I pray all your dreams never come true
Just know where ever you are honey, I pray for you

I’m really glad I found my way to church
‘Cause I’m already feelin’ better and I thank God for the words
Yeah I’m goin’to take the high road
And do what the preacher told me to do

You keep messin’ up and I’ll keep prayin’ for you

I pray your tire blows out at 100 and 10
I pray you pass out drunk with your best friend and wake up with his and her tattoos

I pray your brakes go out runnin’ down a hill
I pray a flowerpot falls from a window sill and knocks you in the head like I’d like to
I pray your birthday comes and nobody calls
I pray you’re flyin’ high when your engine stalls
I pray all your dreams never come true
Just know wherever you are, near or far, in your house or in your car,
wherever you are honey, I pray for you.

This song touched my heart. Its so meaningful.
I hope it touches yours too because it means everything.
And i will always pray for you. :)

loves,
s.f

There are things that even i don't understand.
Everyone has that feeling, i know.

Look into my eyes,
Tell me what you see,
Is it happiness?
Is it sadness?
Is it loneliness?
Is it joy?
Is it fear?
Or is it pain?
Is it something even you don't understand?
Tell me the answers i've been wanting to know,
Because even me myself do not understand.

So Lord, tell me those answer through the dreams i dream and let me understand what are you trying to tell me.

XOXO GLEE

Finn : *stares*
Kurt: *dies*
Don't you just love this picture?
I think its like awesome! HAHAHAHA! thanks to Intan Suraya!!
i took it from her blog, NO! I STOLE IT! XD
thanks Intan! <3

This is specially for the special someone whose been there for me. Your the best friend I've ever had and i treasure you, though you might not be there for me all the time but i know that wherever i go, your always there. That's why your different, your special and you are my everything.. :)

Your smile is like my star,
Your laughter is like my light,
Your voice is like my music.

Your not pretty but your beautiful,
Your not smart but your wise,
Your not nice but your kind,
Your not great but your awesome,
Your not important to me but your everything to me.

I don't like you but i love you,
I don't treat you as my best friend but i treat you as my special friend.

I can't always be there for you but no matter what, i'll always watch you.
And i wouldn't be able to live without you.
That's what true friend means. <3

loves
s.f

There are some thoughts in my mind thinking about things like "am i wrong?" or "was i right?" or "what im doing is it the right thing?" or "why is she doing this to me?".
I use to think that some questions have no answers to it but actually, every question has an answer. but sometimes finding an answer isn't easy. Especially when the other isn't telling the truth. We mustn't give up on finding an answer because every way leads you to a new path. There will be no ending. :)

The things i've told,
Was never true,
It was all a lie,
Because of you.

Its not because i didn't have a reason,
But it was because of the troubles i've given,
I'm not that brave,
But i'm always afraid,
So forgive me if i am wrong,
I'm not always right.

I will not tell you the words of truth,
I'm afraid of what you'll say,
Because i'm scared to face the truth and dare.

I hope that the person whom this is for will read. Because you actually mean a lot to me and by the way, i'm still keeping the watch you gave me. There isn't any reason for me to throw it away. Because i've always treasured you, i just didn't know what to say because i've been lying to you and you kept accusing me. I don't hate you but the only reason i lied was because i was afraid of everything. I'm sorry is the only word i could say because there isn't anything else i could do but made you mad. So i guess its better living this way. Thank you for everything. :')

loves

s.f

HELLO

its morning now, time to wakey wakey!
and go to hell again.
i've been living a dull life now but then it started to get exciting since the incident happened last week.
well, i just gotta forget all about it and just relax cause my exams are next week and i haven't study yet? i'm so dead, hell yeah baby!
i guess im just gonna fail and be locked up in jail.
awesome huh?
exams are just the worst don't ya think so?
i guess that's just it eh.
FTW

loves

s.f

the feeling of hurt, nobody would ever want it.

When i first saw you,
I thought you were cool,
I also thought you were amazing,
Cause you kept on singing.

Your voice was like and angel,
Like a bell which just jingled,
I fell in love at first sight,
And i knew it wasn't right.

Since that day you were always on my mind,
I wanted you to be all mine,
I prayed everyday from morning till night,
I wanted you to hold me tight.

But after i found out i was being such a fool,
I didn't know you were using me like a tool,
I felt so sad so painful so hurt,
You abandoned me like i was a bird.

Since that day until today,
I couldn't stop thinking bout what you say,
I didn't move on but just stood still,
Like a little girl who was too ill.

this was how i felt when i got hurt. :')

I was in love with him, he was my everything. but he didn't love me back. i guess that's how it feels when you let your heart go to someone who wont take it.

I yearn for his touch,
His eyes i couldn't resist,
I keep craving for more,
I want to be held by him,
Because i'm overflowing with feelings deep inside me.

I've never met anyone like him,
i'm like a prisoner in his dark eyes since the moment we've met,
And i know there is no turning back,
Because i've been irrevocably poisoned by his sweetness.

Then i found out,
You weren't serious about me,
But i though you played with my feelings,
I just simply couldn't forget how warm your kiss was,
I don't think i'll ever be able to kill my feelings for him,
Even knowing that it was all a pretend,
Because my feelings for him will always remain in my heart.

And now,
Whenever i see him,
My body starts to burn with desire just from the sight of him,
My heart throbs with feelings for him,
But i'll just have to live with these for the rest of my life,
Even if it hurts me.

I'm sure this is what every girl wants.

My love for you is really true,
My heart is red,
It isn't blue,
Because all i could think about is you.

The words, the leisure,
The touch, the closure,
I will always treasure,
Because its my deepest pleasure.

The yearning of my soul tells me how much i love you,
At that time you told me you love me too,
And now i'm not afraid of us being apart,
Because i know we love each other from the bottom of our hearts.